post/prae-maximo-exhausted in berliny oooohtummy

Posted: Monday, 29 September 2008 | Posted by k | Labels: , 0 comments

truth be told: i am exhausted. period.

handed in bachelorette paper today after meticulous printing, checking and binding. topped only by the fear that tomorrow's last chance of enrolment would be sheer horror which surprisingly enough isn't the case. so fingers crossed i am all new studenty darling wednesday.

my self-prescribed therapy of the week is spending at least 1 hour a day outside, preferably walking. yesterday and today i did just that and it's lovely. today i came across a tree at urbanhafen that looks like an art installation but i don't know. all sorts of things - clothes, bags, shoes, cups, bottles - hang there and it seems disturbingly forlorn. at one point i really should get myself a camera ...

ha! just killed a fruit fly!

and, found one falafel place that actually has superb falafel on sonnenallee, not those shabby thingys they try selling you everywhere for a ridiculously overpriced sum.

desktop looks almost clean again. yeah - get rid of the old work, because - yay - i need to write another paper.

but, on a lighter picture - am at the moment about to maybe find a concept for a new film and am very excited about that but i can't say more now. will also start drawing again when all this "vacation-business" is over and the new semester starts. re that - what courses i will actually attend i need to think about as well.

finished that book: and i loved it! the language!! wowowowow. and finished that: and that i actually found it quite the stunning experience was not to be expected. and i started that: and am intrigued by the first death ...

so, yes, pretty busy doing things that calm me down.

i basically took this post from the whoracle of delphi - miss vaginal davis

Posted: Thursday, 25 September 2008 | Posted by k | Labels: , , 0 comments

sorry miss davis, but your latest post is just too nice to not be fully quoted here. how i love your blog!
my deepest adoration is with you and your insights :)

The lure of the negresse is her adeptness at the sexual arts. She represents danger, a sexual passion capable of satiation and consumption, the literal siphoning off of life through the draining of precious seminal liquor.
Thats basically what my hot, enormously hung German lover told me recently. Well, not exactly in such poetic terms. His big white Nina Blanchard panties are all in a bunch because his wife and I get along better then i do with him.
His spouse is very worldly, and is not troubled in the least by my affair with her husband. They have two small children, and frankly she is only married to him because he gave her pretty babies, and is independently wealthy, so she lives a secure lifestyle. When i first met him i told him i could only be with him if his wife knew about us. He just wanted to carry on behind her back in a traditional melodramatic manner. He is only 28 years old, and i am 400 which makes me too old to be somebodies mistress. So i boldly marched up to his Mrs and told her everything, and without missing a beat, she gave me her blessings.
I am only interested in him because of that giant lug between his legs. The man genitals are beyond impressive. His personality is a bit stilted in that stereotypical teutonic fashion.
Lately he´s gotten all weirded out by the unconventional nature of the relationships. I keep telling him, "well lets end it then." He doesn´t want to do that either, as he´s now too wrapped up in the Doll, and her race horse arse. I think i have properly assmatized him.
With these European men you have to give them a little then pull back. It drives them gnuts. Enough about my love life, i can´t believe i´ve been this revealing.
A reader from Boston wrote congragulating my scoop on the relationship of movie ingenue Anne Hathaway(The Devil Wears Prada) and her no account playboy embezzler ex-beau Raffaello Fallieri. If you remember, i broke the story of their initial pairing here in this very blog. I also said that Mr. Fallieri was a crook and hornpiglet. I knew this firsthand from my own dealings with him sniffing at my gnarly hole years ago in New York. A few mainstream new sources actually gave me some credit for breaking the story which was nice and certainly unexpected.
I also predicted this international global financial crises back when i was still living in Los Angeles. My lady intuition is always spot on. I inherited my Daisy Gamble powers from my Louisiana born Creole mother.
Are you ready for some more beheading of the prophet? Well i am going to give it to you whether you want to hear it or not. Here goes: The US will plunge even deeper into a depression. Not like the one in the 1930s, this one will be different but equally devastating. The Republicans will win the presidency. McCain will die in office, and Ms. Palin will become the first fremale president. If by chance by prediction is in-correct, and Obama wins. Senator McCain will still kick the proverbial bucket and Mr. Obama will be assassinated six months into office.
As the Whoracle of Delphi i only bring misfortune telling.

well, now that i think about it. it's the second post in a row in which i was not the author. huch ...

i am all bad-car-maed these days and all blurry-minded and depersonalized, somehow.

but i am going to see the previewing rehearsal of sebastian baumgarten's 'requiem' at komische oper tomorrow which is good and to gossip a little: said baumgarten knicked his spouse kati angerer 'with her fat ass' off the stage because she refused to act properly or better according to his plan. maybe frank can help. well, but i like mozart's 'requiem' a lot so it's gonna be all melting in my chair. well, or the rest of it. dies irae.

re that - i got my admissions - BUT only after i've called them and they realized they've FORGOTTEN me!

thesis is 'done' since a couple of days and now runs meticulous re-re-re-reading by brave readers.

ah, not enough, that arte.tv's quiz 'which european playwright are you?' told me i was sarte, no, m. at tonight's get together at r.'s flat said that my new haircut makes me all existentialistttty. wow.

and! eventually got me some more chains for hanging the catharsis :)

we can so do it ...

Posted: Sunday, 21 September 2008 | Posted by k | Labels: , 0 comments

found this on shtreimel's blog, lol. *i like*

wow: mozart. and wow: sunglasses

Posted: Tuesday, 16 September 2008 | Posted by k | Labels: , 0 comments

two things i found worth sharing with you. as for the first, it bears some resemblance to bukkake, does it not?

and the second, well, i guess, i am flabbergasted. i mean. whoaaaa.......rgh. actually, i considered having this one as a splitscreened film running next to one of my videos. i didn't dare. i would so sink in the shadow of that ...

if enjoy is the appropriate term, i hope you enjoyed.

seasoning reason or "i love you. i want to have your abortion."

Posted: Monday, 15 September 2008 | Posted by k | Labels: , , 2 comments

when i came back today from work i was having a little walk through reuterkiez and then sesamkiez and then my place of which i don't know any name. i came to realize, again, i might add, that both reuter and sesam are full of seasoning. and you might very well think it's a change of season why should there not be a seasoning in the air. you are so wrong. not air. no. floor. down on the streets there is loads of ripped little packings of seasoning for your very own ramen noodles dish. i wonder why and how that can be? i mean, obviously, we are not so much of a hyper-sophisticated city that allows citizens to boil water on the street, as of yet. how come there is seasoning packings all over? mistaking them for other packings or wrappings? nope. checked like 10 of them. all seasoning. so, maybe, there is a kind of art-project involved? i mean, how? i can understand crisps or gums packings, i can, but, seriously, seasoning for ramen noodles?!

well, i had my very own noodles today, they've been dipped in coconut-chili-ginger-peanut-etc.pp. and they've been yummy.

and what's wrong with the weather? thank god for lacan or i would have frozen my bollocks off although i am sitting here wrapped like an onion. reason tells me - turn the heat on - sod off, it's september, other part of reason replies.

well, been also cocooning myself with icelandic music, and if that is not warming i don't know what should be.

i've been watching quills and was a bit disappointed frankly speaking. well, but i don't like kate winslet anyhow, so that was to be expected.

read deleuze, too. and some more lovely žižek, so two quotes for tonight, whereas the first one (the parts in inverted commas) would actually be palahniuk, i presume:

„i love you. i want to have your abortion.“ this, and not the proverbial „i want to have your child“, is the ultimate expression of love: the gesture of sacrificing the offspring and thus asserting the love relationship as the absolute end-in-itself. (180)

when we are subjected to a power mechanism, this subjection is always and by definition sustained by some libidinal investment: the subjection itself generates a surplus-enjoyment of its own. this subjection is embodied in a network of „material“ bodily practices, and for this reason, we cannot get rid of our subjection through a merely intellectual reflection. our liberation has to be staged in some kind of bodily performance, and, furthermore, this performance has to be of an apparently „masochistic“ nature; it has to stage the painful process of hitting back at oneself. (183 f.)

(žižek: an ethical plea for lies and masochism. in: lacan and contemporary film, ed. mcgowan/kunkle)


Posted: Saturday, 13 September 2008 | Posted by k | Labels: , 0 comments

i am very busy and important. and do write. and read. and! i did finish lost and i really loved it.

besides that many other things.

went to market on maybachufer the other day and liked that a lot. it's such a lively atmosphere and reminded me of the shuk in jerusalem.

additionally, i am thinking about a little trip to london later that year :) oh, i am such an addict. and to so many things. will it ever stop?

autumn's around the corner and it's going to be beautiful. all that decay.

well, i know, i better be off. so, take care.

ah, i figure i won't have too many of those videos left to do but i came to think that if maybe there are some burning questions or additions on your part, why don't you get in touch and we'll figure out how to deal with that. thank you anyways for the time you have spent helping me out and your thoughtful comments both on- and offline.

bachelorette vids - gender.leaves.me.unfocused

Posted: Thursday, 11 September 2008 | Posted by k | Labels: 2 comments

on gender online.

bachelorette vids - real death and virtual death threats

Posted: Tuesday, 9 September 2008 | Posted by k | Labels: 4 comments

how the "anonymous" feeling we have online has an influence on how we behave.

bachelorette vids - im-possible sending and receiving

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on sending and on receiving and on derrida.

bachelorette vids - codes and hats and watertowers

Posted: Monday, 8 September 2008 | Posted by k | Labels: 5 comments

on codes. and with a hat and planes and watertowers and light patterns.

bachelorette vids - late night randomness

Posted: Friday, 5 September 2008 | Posted by k | Labels: , , 0 comments

well, this is so going to be wholly different than the others :)

on random things like countryside love, swollen balls (that were not his: http://www.gayromeo.com/leatherchapsbln but two guesses on who that is. the one who says it first, gets a chance to be the one this paper is dedicated to (if you're sure, it will pretty much be a lot of fun for you to check out this: ... well, i can't really say it here. too naughty. hihi. but i am so very much in the mood to share, so send me a message. hint: ). for obvious reasons l. is not allowed to say it, sorry), musicals, and anonymous hair.
let's face it. all of it.

bachelorette vids - what one will later call the plan

Posted: Thursday, 4 September 2008 | Posted by k | Labels: , , 4 comments

on the plan. and soldiers and winnie the pooh.

bachelorette vids - proust and karaoke

Posted: Wednesday, 3 September 2008 | Posted by k | Labels: , 4 comments

on karaoke, proust, madeleine and how we only know so much. and about future topics.

thank you for your comments.

bachelorette vids - lipstick as strategy of mise-en-scene

Posted: Tuesday, 2 September 2008 | Posted by k | Labels: 7 comments

on lipstick basically. and how one might use filmic strategies for one's videos.

thank you all for your comments.

bachelorette vids - immersion in serial virtual settings

Posted: Monday, 1 September 2008 | Posted by k | Labels: , , 5 comments

on immersion in virtual realities, feedback, series, lost

i do very much appreciate feedback on this videos. part of the reason is in this video. the other is that i don't know how, yet, but i guess i maybe want to include some of it in my paper. so if you have the feeling that you can relate to one or another thing please leave a comment.

bachelorette vids - the flesh in global culture

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i went and saw some dance performance in volksbühne (dave st. pierre - Un peu de tendresse bordel de merde!).
this is about how i felt when seeing the same body as somebody whom i know in canada in the flesh.

the body, virtual knowledge of people.